Fear of being hit.Multiple Times.

For awhile I have had a huge fear of being hit, not by some random stranger, but by an ex girlfriend.I have the feeling its coming soon and even on those near close encounters I now run away,down alleys and hid in a shop I know they will never enter,
Which is usually Game on Cruises Street.
I think I may have been a bad person in the past, and that like many made mistakes and have regrets..blah blah blah. I’m not bad enough to warrant a broken head,but the problem is people, other people,that’s always the problem. Others reactions to situation may differ from mine and then I’m not sure whats going though heads and then I’m fucked.Left wondering and waiting.Wondering whats the interpretation of my action and what action will it be met with.
There is a certain special person I believe if we met would try hospitalise me on the street, thank Christ for Game! I have tried the remain friends after relationship brakes up but that usually drifts and then no one cares. I had a strange relationship where at the end we did not see each other – via interwb break up,shows lack of balls but it just happened there and then.Didn't see each other till a very dodgy situation and I think I may be in for a beating. Things build up in a persons mind and brew and fester and it just builds, when I met said lady,I’m gonna have my head caved right in.Not sure what my reaction to that should be,and haven’t really thought through the situation.
I think I would have to stand there and take it and show what a Gent I am as I get he bus home covered in blood.As you can tell this is becoming quiet a big fear of mine and is really growing by the near encounters.Maybe on next encounter I could change the situation and improve my chances of survival,But this lady is very unpredictable, which is maybe what I liked about her, but now could be my end.Maybe I feel this as I know I did something horrific to her, which is not the case, But its one of the situations where it seems I did but was a misunderstanding an have yet to explain it to her as we don’t talk so it brews in her head.I know she has moved on over our relationship but it was a long time and time is a factor in everything, not so much time left for people in general, so time add misunderstanding,unpredictable woman and it equals me with busted head and smelly bloody eyes.I cant wait for it to be over so when the next sighting happens I will wonder over and push it to its end.
Its shocked me she has not had first sight and encountered me but maybe I was lucky, Or maybe this situation is all in my head and she does not care one bit, maybe. I am not a pessimist or optimist, but a realist- so I will start to carry a knife with me (Joke :)) .
After scrawling this all down I have decided to push it to the limits and when next encounter occurs to go over smile , say "hai",shake hands and offer a coffee (then shoot her under the table :)),maybe we can exchange Christmas cards or something or she can tell me how her new boyfriend is better than me in every way . I write this as I wait for my turn of World Of warcraft,My turn now :).

Photographs

I think my interest began in Photography at a young age, as some of my early memories involved going taking photographs with my uncle, I didn't get to see much of the country at this point.But with photography it always took us to the most interesting of places.One of my memories was hanging off a cliff in fear as waves came over near pulling me over and oh ya, beating up fish, that was my job :).I did a course in photography and I personally like some of my own photographs so here's some!

How to stab someone with a gun.

So and to the start at the end, he was grovelling on the floor, picking up his blood covered teeth and storing them for future use in his breast pocket, swishing about in a pool of blood which was mixing in with the streams of piss pouring out his eyes and his pants. Drenched in his own misery and crying as he didn’t care anymore,Crying as loud as he could,screaming angry tears as no one cared, this wouldn’t be remember and it was all drawing close to the end. Thinking logical was an insult, this situation called for something profound or someone to care.
“MOTHER…..OH SHIT ,OH FUCK “ It didn’t matter now, it was all too soon for the grand finally, he wanted to end it ,bring it to its conclusion and just be over,buried in the ground till he was nothing more than done and dusted.Pissing and crying wont help him now, if only he could move,get up from the floor and try get back what he had, but it was too late, struggling like a fish out of water trying to breath and waiting for some sign,But It wasn’t coming, Forcing himself off the floor has the hardest thing he ever did,moving his hand and then Yes,Christ it was finally over,The credits began to role and that was the end of the lord of the rings trilogy.

This feeling is a gentle mix of Angry/Crying, I think best expressed at the very end of the film Bad Lieutant .I couldnt find the exact clip so rent and watch it.I think this special feeling is pure fustration and I often feel the same so I am a huge fan of seeing it expressed anywhere,it also provides hours of laughter even when just out of the mist of it.In real life i have seen Angry/Crying and it intrests me alot,when I see others expressing this emotion I wonder why they feel it,Maybe I wonder this as lately I believe I might be a noisy person, I have always had a huge intrest in People and their rooms, It tells alot about the person and its an endless talking point.When I was younger I used to have a strange compulsion of endlessly improving and changing about my room.I am also not a big television fan but love to watch shows with a "Through the Keyhole" type thing going on.

Sean Penn Beheads Viking

Brian Boru defeated the Vikings with an army of 30,000 men in Dublin in 1014. Boru was killed but the Vikings fled back to Denmark. But, before Boru passed on he beheaded one of the Vikings and cut the legs of another,Now that sounds like an Irish hero to me, and who could play of the role of the last great king of ireland?
Sean Penn,Gladiator Did great and similar films ,running out of heroes and cultures to bastardise,Brian Boru must now bow before the axe.I personnaly think Daniel Day Louis should have had the job and he wont need to put on such a dodgy accent too like most americans have where they portay another race.At least its not going to be Leonardo De Caprio.That scumBag.

Cat Woman Of Limerick !

I used to be a huge Dog fan, they have all the characteristics of a person who would be a great friend com paired to
the disloyal,sneaky cat.where ever i went dogs would run up to me to lick my hand and headbutt my leg.
I always had a very bad Reaction to cats they would attack me, and I am also allergic to them and their god damn hair.
But over time I would spend more and more time with two good friends of mine and realise the joy of cats, their cats are
nicer than most peoples and I judge cats harsh! and also My allergies don't seem to go nuts with them around but the downside
is where i live pretty much everyone has a dog and these days they bark and chase me, I think its due to the smell
of cat .So now I am a cat liker ! who could hate the lolcats .
My good friend has written a great blog about cats and all information surrounding them and their mystery check it out - http://sandra-fortheloveofcats.blogspot.com/

Unknown Celeb of the week - Daniel Johnston

Daniel diagnosed with bipolar disorder has led a very varied and interesting life, a normal average day does not
seem to exist for this man, some say a genius others a fool.His first recordings where done using a faithful tape
recorder,but little did Daniel know he could tape the original and create many copies of the original, so instead each album he
created might have featured the same songs as another album of the same name but each song was different in small ways.
Daniel being a huge comic book fan uses alot of the old American comic book heroes in his themes,which to me is quit appealing
being another comic fan.This man has played with the great from Sonic Youth to Jad Fair,and has been sited as an influence
by many of the greats like David bowie,Kurt Cobain,Eddy Vedder,Henry Rollins and the list goes on.

For me I had heard of Daniel before his film "The Devil and Daniel Johnston" ,but that film really exposed me to him
and I found a love for the classic "walking the cow" which even my little brother knows word for word, Some very catchy
songs mixed in with common and interesting themes and hidden harmony,He has some hits but Personally I Believe he also has many a miss,
His concerts seems to be a mix, Each different and the audience not knowing what to expect from each show.

His life seems very interesting and how he goes about his music, "The Devil and Daniel Johnston" is a very interesting watch but for me
could be very depressing at times. Check out the video of "Walking the cow" from his show in Dublin Down Below and check out his film.